Have great one ahead, don't you dare get a blogger's block.
May this year be a year of tremendous growth
(see, i CAN work for hallmark)
So once again, class has started. Whether we like it or not.
Thinking about this brings me back to the last examination I had.
It was the examination for my Malaysian Studies. Well, it's actually called Pengajian Am, but this is my sad attempt to make my lala college sound classy. So anyway, I sat down. The exam invigilator passed out the paper, I opened it, and my mouth practically dropped to the ground.
I knew the answers to nothing. nada. zilch. zip. NOTHING!.
You see , I taught i'd be smart and forecast what was coming up in the exams (DON'T EVER DO THAT!). So, i only studied what I thought was going to be asked. Well, from here i can say, i bloody suck in forecasting.
As i embraced my nothing-ness, I thought I'd start from the back- the essay question.
"Okay, so there are 4 questions to choose from" *scans through all of them* "Oh thank God! I know how to answer one!"
So i start writing, adding all UNNECESSARY points to proof to my lecturer that I DID in fact, STUDY!. I procrastinate while writing hoping to stretch time so i wouldn't need to face the 10 pages in the front (that i didn't know how to answer)
Finally , i finish. I'm happy with my end product (OMG sound like I'm talking about my shit lol)
Then my eye catches something. I re-read the question.
"SH*T I'm suppose to answer ALL the 4 questions. Not choose one!"
Oh god, I'm screwed.
All i could of think was
"Lord, if you're REALLY gonna come for the second time, YOU COME NOW GOD!!!"
(i see myself using this phrase alot in the future.Thank you Pastor Mike)
Then i look to see if my fellow classmates are as screwed as me. I've been so caught up in my screwed-ness that I didn't see that they were all as worried.
Then out of a sudden, they start exchanging answers. You can here whispers of 'Eh, nombor 15?" and then someone murmurs the answer. In a blink of an eye, EVERYONE around me is Copying.
Like copying REALLY obviously. This ppl HAVE to learn how to copy more smartly. I mean, even kindergartners could do better.
Then a guy friend whispers to me. "Sabrina!" and he pushes his paper, all filled with answers to the side of his table.
I can totally see ALL THE ANSWERS.
"hmmm. to copy or not to copy." i think to myself.
I start trying to reason. One part of me goes
"Go ON! Copy, you DON'T want to fail and have to sit over for the boring class again!"
While the part goes
"What would Jesus do?"
(okay, not a joke. don't laugh.serious stuff)
In the end, i obviously chose to do the paper on my own (though. VERY reluctantly)
I think through my life. For the past years, I've been trying very hard to 'grow up' I think everyone my age would understand. We've just finished high school, we're going to college, soon we'll be working adults, leaving on our own, all away and alone from our family.
We HAVE to grow up! no doubts about it.
One thing i've learnt is to have certain principles in life. And one of them is to get only what you deserve. As in do not take acknowledgment for something that is not yours. So whatever rewards you get is wholly because YOU did it. You deserved it.
So let's just say, If i fail this paper (which i most probably would), I'd be okay because know that i failed with integrity.
though my parents would think otherwise ;)
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