Dear Erin. is something I came up with, like Thought Of The Day, when I was lazing around dreaming of anything under the sky. You know, we all have that time where you sit , gaze into space and let your brain wonder to catch whatever ideas there are in the air?
I turned twenty a couple of days ago.
Honestly, turning 20 makes me feel like a disappointment.
When I was a teen I thought that by the time I turned 20, I would have gotten my whole life in the palms of my hand. I thought that I would have been in uni, already pursuing my passion. I also thought I would have an amazing body and long wavy hair.
Hate to tell you this baby, but none of this has came to pass (or present).
You're going to start comparing yourself to your friends and see that they are doing so much better. You're going to feel rather crap-ish. You're going to feel a little lost and undirected. You're going to feel alone sometimes. And I can't tell you that it's all going to be okay in a jiffy, cause it won't. It would drag on for hours, days, weeks and even months. But baby, never lose focus in the Man above because no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him.
People are going to start pressuring you to move fast and think quick. People are going to expect you to have your life in order. But it's okay not to. It's okay for you to be in a mess. You don't need to have everything in order. No matter how much noise you get from the people around you, listen to your heart and that still voice in you. Listen closely, Listen smartly.
20 is just a number.
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